6.1.10

75.Here we go! Here we go! (title meant to be sung)

the truth is, i've just had so much i've been wanting to tell you, i didn't know where to begin & i so i never did. but since it's a school week again (xmas vacation is over) & it's a wednesday (blog days), i'm buckling myself in tight this time & for the long haul...but i make no promises cause i'm just not that type of person. i don't like broken promises so i don't make promises i can't keep but since i've always been just a tiny bit philosophical, i tell myself that any promise can be broken so that's why i don't make any. it's horrid actually & it's a major fault. i'm hesistant & indecisive & i don't really know what i want; just what i don't want. (in response to hill's post)

today, winter sales in france began for a month.

so what do i want to remember about my year in france? let's start with xmas presents?
hat-scarf-gloves set, molecular gastronomy set, christmas recipe book, jewelery holder, xmas tea, 30£, scarf, l'étranger (camus), studio beluga necklace & other little things.

omg!! god my massive package yesterday & i was ECCSTATIC!!! (surprised i still remember how to spell that...) i love receiving packages; i get soooo EXCITED!!! i slashed the thing open with a pair of dull scissors in not-so-record-time since the scissors were so dull but wtv.

oh yeah! i wanted to talk about how INCREDIBLE some authors are. i recently finished Memoirs of a Geisha (Golden) & now i'm halfway through Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close (Foer) & it's also crazy good. well, what i can't get over how much authors are like actors, or their just really good empathizers. who knows, maybe they sympathize well too? but anyway, not all of them obviously but when some american man can write a 434 page book (not sure, from memory) from the perspective of a japanese lady recounting her life in the 1930-40, like that's just crazy. he's so intricate, just like a geisha & you ask yourself how it can all be...fiction. & then there's Foer who is writing in the present but from a 9-year old's point of view. the language, the thoughts & the understanding of a child mind is either pure psychology, or pure genious. & PLUS, the novel is practically a picture book; love that!

4h math exam went well this morning but i want a good mark soooooo bad, as in minimum an american pass (60%) but more preferably, an 80%. (i care cause i want to go to university next year, where marks matter. i going to have to pull of a "never before" to get the freaking BAC that's freaking me out. like i truthfully don't get how the HELL i'm supposed to learn EVERYTHING by heart by the end of the year, no joke. EVERYTHING. funny cause i've always wanted school like this, when you basically get a big book of everything you have to know by the end of the year. it amuses me but it's just so much!!! plus french; ok, i'll stop now. imagine how much easier it would be to only learn the stuff that truly interests you. i honestly feel force-fed to the extreme right now; dry, tasteless information that is just non-adhesive to my brain. & seriously, i hate wasting brain space for things i don't want to remember. i want to remember the important things. it used to be fine cause i just stored school stuff in short-term memory, unless it was science but now that's no longer an option cause i need it to pass the BAC...sh*t)

bisous

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