46. So No One's Perfect?

you know that feeling when you find out someone's not who you thought they were?

that's a bit how i'm feeling.

i found out this afternoon that someone i've "idolized" for the past two years doesn't actually possess the qualities that i looked up to him for. it's a foamy mixture of disappointment & betrayal i'm feeling, not that it's his fault in any way.

this person is efficient, quick-minded, intelligent, has great judgement, patient & is a great teacher. he is also very motivated & pushes others forward. he always seems so sure of himself & all the time, my question to myself when i'm unsure is "what would he do in this situation?"

but darn. i found out he has as many doubts as i do.

i'm going to go bake now...

[bt]