99. "The End"

' "The End" is a tricky bugger, but if you wanted, you could define the beginning of the end as the point when the protagonist has to see that her actions mean something, and that if they don't work out right, she is well and truly fucked.'
-Julie Powell, Julie & Julia


I very much appreciate this definition of "The End" as it applies to me in many ways. I can relate, is what I mean, besides the fact that Powell's just a riot (one should really read the novel by one's lonesome for the sake of saving oneself of embarassment id est laughing hysterically in public).

In any case. I'll have you note that this is my final two-digit post (scroll up, if you must), which isn't really an "End" per se, but it kind of is. The other, more relevant "End" is OBVIOUSLY the fact that I've got like what? about 90 days left? & of course, the EVEN MORE relevant "End" would be the fact that I'm freaked out about the BAC cause now it actually MATTERS if I get it or not, you know, since I'm like now "Accepted", ooo lala...

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p.s. PLUS, this is totally an "Oprah-full-circle moment"; c.f. post 30, posted 22 days prior to departure

98. It's spring, so let's see what's sprouting about...

wave that hair!! (i just had to show you this dwarf species of a horse; her name is Caramel, i believe)

buds.
amazing how moss can be so beautiful.





blossoms.


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97. shopaholic? shopaphobic.

so i just came back from a day at the mall with my host sister & her friend. bof...

i don't know what it is with me but i don't really enjoy it. there's just nothing that really interests me & the rare article that does? well, the prices aren't exactly accomodating & i refuse to buy something if i don't really love it. so it ends up kind of depressing in a way.

on one hand, my host sister doesn't know how to not spend, so she totalled a whopping 115£ where as i spent a measly 5£. & it wasn't even for me...

last weekend, my mamie gave me 40£ so that i could buy myself a bag. my host sisters had went shopping with her for the day while i cooked chinese food for the family & they both came back with really nice purses. mamie considers me as her granddaughter too so she thought that i deserved a bag. it's really nice of her but i just don't think i can spend it. so what do it do? is it right for me to just keep the money & spend it on something i actually want? i'm not a huge bag person & ESPECIALLY not if it's made out of some crappy synthetic leather that makes me nautious whenever i take a whiff. bleugh.

i'm so freaking sick of my clothes. i brought 5 pairs of jeans with me when i came & i'm surviving on 2. 2 are too small & 1 is ripped at the crotch. & the 2 i'm living on are both too big. all my clothes are breaking down & i have nothing to wear for the summer. the only good thing i can think of is the fact that bringing less clothes back home means i just might make it into stuffing everything into my luggage. that's all.

i also have no summer shoes, even though i brought 7 pairs with me (1 nike running shoes, 2 tennis shoes, 1 flats, 1 boots, 1 flip flops & 1 heels)

help me.

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96. Quick Update

just random updates; whatever comes to mind...

-cooked a chinese meal for my host family. in france, in general, you're guilty til proven innocent so everyone was very very skeptical about my cooking skills. luckily, the pressure usually helps you succeed & if you prove them wrong, all the better for you. i cooked for 10 & it turned out not so bad, if i may say so myself.
-it's easter weekend & taking things easy. plus, i'm on vacation for two weeks. the weather is beautiful today & i spent the last 3h playing tarot with host parents & host papi. a freaking joy.
-my sis is in ny this week
-i'm obsessing over university stuff & i'm loving it!!! just repeated reading my course descriptions & trying to figure out the credits & such.
-watching gossip girl at night, which is a show i gave up not even half way into the first season cause it was too pretentious fake & i had too much work last year. but this year, i have the dvds & no school for a while so rather tempting
-i really hope that i study well these two weeks, you know, in prep for the bac.
-i also love buzz, which i play a lot of. it's like who wants to be a millionare that you play against friends & family (or ennemies?) with good questions that only repeat if you play as much as i do. the "gameshow host" even said yesterday "it wouldn't be buzz without you" cause i play so much

end of quick update.

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95. REJOICEEEEEEEEEE

I got accepted.

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